I woke up this morning to the thought that today will be the second last Friday before I leave. That means it’s another thirteen days to departure.
Amazing how fast time flies. I can still vividly recall asking myself repeatedly back in November how I would spend the two months of 2016 if I no longer have work in my schedule. I worried that I might end up spending days at home doing nothing worthwhile, entertain unhealthy thoughts and then eventually be depressed. I mean, hasn’t there been numerous studies out there that reported that a lot of people face depression because they have too much time on their hands and then entertain negative thoughts and suggestions? So the over-dramatic side of me had imagined ugly scenarios of myself walking around with huge eyebags, unruly hair, sad face, not bathing for days, and then my family coming home to a crying person.
Alhamdulillah, those remained part of my imagination (and I pray that Allah protects all of us from that, amin) for as I looked back to the past 1.5 months, I realized that by His grace, I was able to occupy my time usefully.
Definitely, there were many days where I spent engaging in these activities in solitude. Having meals by myself, going to places by myself and finally, returning to an empty home. However, I may be in solitude but that does not mean I felt alone.
Alhamdulillah, there was never a time when I felt lonely. Through it all, I always got the feeling that I was given those few hours to myself and once the time is up, Allah will fill up the rest of the time with my family’s and friends’ presence. Then sometimes and for wisdom only He knows, Allah brings people into my life and I get to interact more than I do on other days.
Regardless, these past few weeks have unfolded according to His plans. By His will, every moment that occurs sees the right thing and people coming together to occur at the right place and time.
So, last thirteen days here in Singapore before I come back again a few months from now if I have the rezeki, insyaAllah. Till then, I look forward to spending this time within the confines of the familiar.