So many things have happened since the last time I blogged and I pretty much have a lot of things on my mind at the moment that I don’t even know where to begin blogging.
Do I blog about the last few days of my time in Singapore before I flew back to Seoul for the fall semester? Or do I start blogging about the past few days of my time in Seoul?
Do I blog about what has happened? Or do I blog about things going through my mind at present?
All I know is that it’s a confusing mess up there in my head! Regardless, let’s start somewhere. Perhaps for this entry, let’s just dedicate it to my worries about my time here (afterall, I have all the time in the world to blog about stuff once my family goes back home!).
I’m currently in Seoul and pretty much still homeless. Been looking for a house and the search has taken me to several places. But I’ve yet to find THE one for me. The places I’ve seen so far are either located on a low floor, has no view, lack ventilation, owner’s asking for pretty high deposit, monthly rent out of my budget or that the place is located too far out. Maybe I’m picky but yeah, I’ve not found a place that I liked so far. Oh wait, I’ve found one I liked (high floor, great view, windy and spacious) but the price is too high!
So, that’s my biggest worry of the moment – lack of housing!
Next, would be the worry related to money. When I sit to do my budgeting for the amount of money I would need for the next few months here, I’m left very much aware that the numbers are not in my favour. To be specific, there is definitely a shortfall in the money I have with respect to amount I need.
I keep reminding myself that despite it all, I should still be grateful and to constantly say my alhamdulillah-s. Alhamdulillah that I’m still alive and healthy. Alhamdulillah that I’m still fed. Alhamdulillah that I’m still clothed. Alhamdulillah that I have people in life I can turn to for strength. Alhamdulillah that I’m still in a state whereby I remember to say my alhamdulillah in the first place.
However, the worry is still there and I can’t help it. 😦
Lastly for now, I still do not feel the loneliness as my family is here with me. I have them till this Thursday morning at least. I’m praying hard that I can find it somewhere in me to still keep my head up and embrace the next few months with positivism despite not having my family with me.
Okay, I guess that’s all for now. More to come in the next few days!